something different than what coach wrote

ok, we all fall short everyday of something. Me, and my training. It's not exactly perfect everyday. Somedays i might do a little less others i might do more than what i'm supposed to ( like it matters doing more) and sometimes i just might do something completely different. it all depends on whats going on for me. well, today I didnt do near as much riding as i was supposed - 6 1/2 hr bike ride and a 45 minute run..... no - Instead it was a about a 4 hr bike ride 40 minute run and i dont know how long i swam for.... but i did swim ... but ya not good.

yikes - and now off to work -

how many weeks left - ?

Life has a role. It has a system. You are born, people love you. You are just the cutest thing anyone has ever seen. Middle school you gain responsibility that you think is too much to handle. Highschool... give me all you got. I can do it on my own. 18 - you either live with you your parents for a while and expect the world of them because you are scared and lost and can admit it or you move out trying to be independent and responsible. Wanting to show them you can make it and don't need help, you are scared and lost but to admit such a thing would be stupid or childish. I moved out - got my stuff and moved in with a room mate. Trying to juggle work, college, and training is not easy. I took a glance and jumped because I believe I could go the distance. I am barely landing on solid ground and I'm scrambling to do what needs to be done. It's an adventure. I even loose track on the days that are left till this race. There is alot going on at this point in life for anyone. No matter what. Staying home, moving out, or just trying to stay on the right path. I just want to thank my coach, parents and everyone out there that has helped me and conitnue to help me. As much as I hate to say it, I can use all the help in the world. Anything would make me happy. Less than 9 weeks I believe, to the Ironman. - It's all in the mind -(that's what i hear) but it's also in your heart. - Things will go the way they are supposed to.

I love you guys and thanks for the support.